I still do

Sorry, on these days I will write the 3th part of breaking dawn... but for now I need to take a break!!

I saw you yesterday, and I couldn't help to remember how much I still love you; I was reading our past conversations and noticed how much you did too. I know I've been a fool, I always left you behind.

I don't think we'll ever be back again, and fate is taking care of that so well. That the only thing that's left is the hope that this feeling will at least slowly fade away; my hearth is broken in thousands of pieces and it hurts so much to be that close of you but at the same time so far. I didn’t want it to be this way and you know it; it’s not my fault the change of schedule ...but it is the lack of care I gave you.

I don’t know if you are just looking for and excuse to talk to me, or you really needed those things. I just want to think that everything has disappear and that you no longer feel the same for me, so I can go on with my life and be depressed for a while and then come back to life.

I still love you… I do!!... but there are moments when I’m angry with you for doing this, but later I feel bad for thinking that of you. You knew I didn’t have experience at all, that you were the first boyfriend I ever had (and that’s saying much); you were the only one that insisted that much so I could notice what you really wanted. Cause you now… I have always my mind up in the sky, and for me to notice your real intention was a big deal.

I think I have nothing else to say, at least for now. I will still see you almost every day, for only two months since now, cause you will finally end up with your studies but I will continuing here learning another language, just one more… another language to tell you this all over again.. Je t'aime!! =P

Twilight Premiere

Waaa... I can't believe that I won one of the tickets to see Twilight before the official premiere!!... Not even my friends believe me =P... ¬¬ ... but anyway.... I actually prefer the book over the movie... but I liked it anyway; I even had to ask my boss.. to please give me permission to work from home that day so I could go watch the movie =P... oh!!... What a great job the one I have xD.

My sister and my cousin also won a ticket!! =P... so we went all together... but at least I sat with my sister =P... cause like my cousin knows... I don't like her (my cousin) because she told me parts of Breaking Dawn before I started to read it ¬¬... I hate her for that... =P.. she knows... but is never too late for her to read it again and find out how much hate her (again) u_U.... and even yesterday she was going to die again... cause my sister is still reading Eclipse... but my cousin's dear friend ¬¬ said... ooooh!!... (Warning!! If you haven't read Breaking Dawn and don't want to know anything about the book till you read it, stop reading here and continue on the bold part)I couldn't believe when I found out that Bella was pregnant... ¬¬ I didn't bite her only because there was too much people xD. So now my sister knows that Bella is pregnant on the last book... (Here) and she almost kills her for telling her... and I'm quoting here a book I'm reading know... and this is especially for my cousin's friend:

"Expect no mercy. Your treachery is known. You'll pay in blood for what you've done"
John Farris - Shatter

Yeah I know is cruel... but she definitely deserves it =P xD... we are all free to know what we want or not... and by doing that is like telling a person what will do for the rest of its life ¬¬ and ruin the end =P... is like telling you the end of a movie you have been waiting for so long.... those are the people that had already see a movie and when is going out of the theater says... I can't believe it ends (this way)...., but well... what goes around comes around!! xD... too bad.. I should write this... but anyway is my therapy =P.

Some changes

As you can see, I have placed the widget where you can see everything you want about the Twilight Movie. I needed some help to do that, because I'm not an expert on HTML (yet) xD... yes... I'm planning study some of that.... but anyway... many thanks to my dear friend also known as "Naruto" to help me with this... This is because I noticed that many of you are always looking for the post where the widget is... so like eventually the post will vanish on the older posts... I decided to place it here... on top of all so you don't need to go true all the post to find this one... I think this is the only thing I wanted to say =P... so let's keep on the reading!!

So..... confused!

I really don't know what to do, you can made your conclusions for my last post, but at this exact moment.. we are talking and is weird but it seems like we can talk to each other now better than before, when we were together.
A my friend says that maybe we are more friends than a couple, but I don't know what to think, and I don't even know why I'm writing this here, I'm not suppose to do this, I'm suppose to write phrases, just like the title says, but I'm tired of that. There are million of things I would like to talk about that I know for sure a lot of people wouldn't care, but like they don't care, I don't care either if they read it or not.

So rules had been made to be broken right? so let's break the rules and from now on I'll write whatever I like to and feel like to write at the moment, but for the one (my cousin) that are reading the twilight saga and wants to know at least a little resume of the book, but of course without saying too much to ruin the reading, I will still publish that along with some other books that I'm reading at the moment, and maybe, just maybe one or other phrase around there. I'm looking for some that might caught your attention so just be a little patient and you'll have what you came looking in here.

And returnig to my crisis =P, I just don't know what to do, and if you are reading this, you are going to kill me, because I'm considering don't breaking up with him, I might give him one more chance, because you know? I haven't been the best I could at that moment, I think we better try again and if this time doesn't work then we'll just have to split. But I won't be feeling sad and be wondering what if... so I'll do this and won't have any regrets. So please leave live, don't kill me... and I have to say something in my own defense-- you have done worst things that I--- so I'm just an angel next to you.
Don't be mad at me... you know I always say things like this, but either way I'll pick you up tomorrow if you still want.

Time

I think this is the pic that I used most of the time when we were together. To bad; was such a nice pic, but now it will remind me about you, well... they say that time heals everything, although, there's nothing to heal now.
Here I leave you with... I don't know... a poem?? . I wrote this just one hour after you asked me for time, but I rewrite it a day after I realize what did you tell me, and I notice for those words, that you didn't love me as I did.

It's all about time,
the one that will pass by
and that you won't wait;
for me to come by

You asked me for time
and that's what I give you
but I don't know for how long
can this feeling hold on

So confusing is this;
because in you is all I think
but it seems I'm not the one
that is around your mind

You didn't think about me in a month
maybe once in your memory
to ask me for a word

I thought I meant more for you
but it seems that I was wrong
maybe that's why I didn't risk
to lose more that what I own

Krla!