Some of you might love Jacob and some of you might hate him for some things he did or said, in a certain moment I hate him; however, after reading this… I sort of understand why he did it. He had his reasons and some of them are very good ones. But there are also some selfish ones, but I didn’t know that some of his behavior came for the werewolf characteristics.
Well… I leave this so you can read it if you want to… of course. It’s really exciting and some parts are really funny, so… enjoy!
Being like Jacob
New Moon call
I know I shouldn't be doing this cause I promised like a thousand times that I would end up with the Twilight saga, but I just can't help it... for the ones that have read New Moon, you were all shocked in the part when Edward calls Bella's house and Jacob answers... but haven't you wondered what exactly happened at that moment?... what were the exact words of Rosalie... so that Edward would call?.... well.. here is the answer... is really exciting!!.... you MUST! read it!.. enjoy!
******Here******
And for the ones that love... Rosalie... and believes that she is an innocent dove.... here are her thoughts after she called Edward. Was she really that selfish?... or she just didn't imagine that that would happen?
And for the ones that love... Rosalie... and believes that she is an innocent dove.... here are her thoughts after she called Edward. Was she really that selfish?... or she just didn't imagine that that would happen?*****Here*****
Next chapter---- be like Jacob and meet the casting of the werewolf clan. =P
15.5.09
Paramore - Emergency
Long time huh?.... well...I know I promised I will write the end of Breaking Dawn… but is a really long book… and I want to write a really good summary, so if you could just wait for me a couple of days… I promise it will all be worth it!
So here I leave you with another video of Paramore… this time is Emergency!... nice song.. well let’s see how it goes ^^
Emergency
I think we have an emergency
I think we have an emergency
If you thought I'd leave, then you were wrong
Cause I won't stop holding on
So are you listening?
So are you watching me?
If you thought I'd leave, then you were wrong
Cause I won't stop holding on.
This is an emergency
So are you listening?
And I can't pretend that I don't see this
it's really not your fault
When no one cares to talk about it
Talk about it…
Cause I've seen love die
Way too many times
When it deserved to be alive (deserved to be alive)
I've seen you cry
Way too many times
When you deserved to be alive (alive)
So you give up every chance you get
Just to feel new again
I think we have an emergency
I think we have an emergency
And you do your best to show me love,
but you don't know what love is.
So are you listening?
So are you watching me?
Well I can't pretend that I don't see this
It’s really not your fault
When no one cares to talk about it
Talk about it
Cause I've seen love die
Way too many times
When it deserved to be alive (deserved to be alive)
I've seen you cry
Way too many times
When you deserved to be alive (alive)
Scars, they will not …fade away.
No one cares to talk about it, to talk about it?
Cause I've seen love die
Way too many times
When it deserved to be alive (when it deserved to be alive)
I've seen you cry
Way too many times
When you deserved to be alive (when you deserve to be alive)
Alive…
I think we have an emergency
I think we have an emergency
If you thought I'd leave, then you were wrong
Cause I won't stop holding on
So are you listening?
So are you watching me?
If you thought I'd leave, then you were wrong
Cause I won't stop holding on.
This is an emergency
So are you listening?
And I can't pretend that I don't see this
it's really not your fault
When no one cares to talk about it
Talk about it…
Cause I've seen love die
Way too many times
When it deserved to be alive (deserved to be alive)
I've seen you cry
Way too many times
When you deserved to be alive (alive)
So you give up every chance you get
Just to feel new again
I think we have an emergency
I think we have an emergency
And you do your best to show me love,
but you don't know what love is.
So are you listening?
So are you watching me?
Well I can't pretend that I don't see this
It’s really not your fault
When no one cares to talk about it
Talk about it
Cause I've seen love die
Way too many times
When it deserved to be alive (deserved to be alive)
I've seen you cry
Way too many times
When you deserved to be alive (alive)
Scars, they will not …fade away.
No one cares to talk about it, to talk about it?
Cause I've seen love die
Way too many times
When it deserved to be alive (when it deserved to be alive)
I've seen you cry
Way too many times
When you deserved to be alive (when you deserve to be alive)
Alive…
14.4.09
Paramore - Hallelujah
This is another Paramore music video, I really like this one… it gives a little bit of hope...and I just love the chorus =P... take a look at it, is really good! ^-^
Hallelujah
Somehow everything is gonna fall right into place
If we only had a way to make it all, fall faster every day
If only time flew like a dove;
we are gonna make it fly faster that I’m falling in love
This time we are not giving up
Let’s make it last forever
Screaming “hallelujah”
We’ll make it last forever
Holding onto patience wearing thin
I can’t force this eyes to see the end
And If only time flew like a dove
Well we could watch it fly and just keep looking on
This time we are not giving up
Let’s make it last forever
Screaming “hallelujah”
We’ll make it last forever
And we’ve got time on our hand
Got nothing but time on our hands
Got nothing but…
Got nothing but …
Got nothing but time on our hands
This time we are not giving up
Let’s make it last forever
Screaming “hallelujah”
“hallelujah”
Somehow everything is gonna fall right into place
If we only had a way to make it all, fall faster every day
If only time flew like a dove;
we are gonna make it fly faster that I’m falling in love
This time we are not giving up
Let’s make it last forever
Screaming “hallelujah”
We’ll make it last forever
Holding onto patience wearing thin
I can’t force this eyes to see the end
And If only time flew like a dove
Well we could watch it fly and just keep looking on
This time we are not giving up
Let’s make it last forever
Screaming “hallelujah”
We’ll make it last forever
And we’ve got time on our hand
Got nothing but time on our hands
Got nothing but…
Got nothing but …
Got nothing but time on our hands
This time we are not giving up
Let’s make it last forever
Screaming “hallelujah”
“hallelujah”
23.2.09
Breaking Dawn - Part 3
This third part is narrated by Bella, she starts her history at the very moment she is about to be on labor. Sorry for taking so long but I've been really busy; well that's enough the last thing you want to read is my apology, so finally here it is….:She is walking with Rosalie upstairs to use the restroom, but then she came back to the sofa cause the coup where she was drinking from (blood of course) was about to spill, so she tried to reach it before that but then suddenly felt that she wasn’t completely moving to that side… as if something was pulling to the other side of her; after that the only thing she remembers is that they were upstairs but she only reached to see Edward and Jacob, Rosalie was no longer there (wonder why?), and she heard that the baby was entangled with the umbilical cord, so she was wondering: “why isn’t he doing something?... the baby is gonna die! What is he waiting for?” TAKE IT OUT….save him…. Then she heard the sound of something breaking apart (of course it was her) this was because Edward was taking the baby out, so he needed to use his teeth for this particular thing, cause like you all know this wasn’t made by human skin (if you didn’t… now you do).
After that Bella was weaker than ever, but then she saw the baby… it wasn’t like the one she dreamed about, the little boy, this was a girl… she felt a little disappointed at that second, but that was all it last this disappointment, cause then she saw her closely and…. She was beautiful, she had curly hair, the same chocolate brown eyes like the mother and the same porcelain skin that the father has, but this one was pink at the cheeks, this meant that she was alive, not a vampire, at least not a complete one and after all this, Bella saw something that she thought she’ll never see on her entire existence, a creature even more beautiful than Edward… of course it had to be his daughter… Renesmee.
So like all the mothers on the entire world, she wanted to hold her daughter, so she did… she was hugging her but then suddenly she felt a pain on her chest; then Edward take the baby out and Bella was starting to lose consciousness, all went black while she listened to Jacob said, “keep your heart beating as you promised”… she was thinking I will...I have to!... but she felt a huge amount of weight that was pushing her down to the darkness, she was fighting against it, but she was about to surrender… when she remembered why she was fighting for, it wasn’t just her life, it was Edward's life, cause they where only one, if she died he will also “die”, and she couldn’t imagine a world without Edward, and even so… now there was another reason to live for, she had her beautiful daughter, their daughter Renesmee; she’ll need her; she couldn’t just abandon her, so she wouldn’t… she attached to a little warmness she fell on her body, while she tried to get out of the darkness and the heaviness, but she was only a human, she couldn’t do this alone, so she couldn’t avoid this but at least she tried to push it away and not falling anymore.
But then the warmness started to felt a little bit uncomfortable, it was no longer a warm sensation but now it was like a fire, and she remembered this feeling, it was like the time James bit her, this was because of the venom, then she understood the meaning of this, Edward was trying to save her by make her a vampire as he said he will, and this was supposed to be the plan from the beginning but they were not completely sure about using it, and even so Carlisle had been talking with Edward about using morphine so the pain would be less, they tried to use it with Emmet when they transform him, but the venom burned the morphine before it acted, so they were thinking on using more, so that was maybe the reason she couldn’t move but feel everything… the fire started to run all over her body, and she finally felt as if the lower part of her was connected again with the rest of her, this on one side was better but on the other this meant that the fire will reach that part too.
She could listen to everyone and everything, she was aware of what was happening to her but only by the things they say, Edward was always standing beside her, he never left her alone. At the second day she could move, but she didn’t wanted to, because she knew that if she moved she would start to scream and this will make Edward suffer; on the other hand the fire was a little less than usual but it had become even stronger on the center (the heart), Edward was worried because she didn’t talk neither move, and he thought he had done something wrong.
Alice went to see her, and told Edward that she’ll be done soon, and that she had become a really beauty, but he corrected her: “she had always been a beauty” u.u xD, after that at the next day Bella finally stop feeling the fire on the rest of her body and this one were only in her heart. Then all the family reunited there on the same room she was, and it was then when she felt that the fire become even more suffocating, more powerful… it extinguished and the pain vanished all at once…
Pd. I’ll write the rest of this next week, or hopefully this weekend, see ya!.
6.2.09
Paramore - I caught myself
Here I leave a fan made video with parts of the trailer, and this song named I caught myself; at least when I hear this song it looks like if it were sang by Bella to Jacob, when says that "I know in my heart is not you"; at least that's what I think =P... if not, my bad. Well enjoy!!.
I caught myself
Down to you
you're pushing and pulling me down to you
but I don't know what I
Now when I caught myself
I had to stop myself
I'm saying something that
I should have never thought
now when I caught myself
I had to stop myself
I'm saying something that
I should have never thought of you
Of you....you're pushing and pulling me down to you
but I don't know what I want
no I don't know what I want...
You got it, you got it
some kind of magic
hypnotic, hypnotic
you are leaving me breathless
I hate this, I hate this
you are not the one I believed in
with God as my witness
Now when I caught myself
I had to stop myself
I'm saying something that
I should have never thought
now when I caught myself
I had to stop myself
I'm saying something that
I should have never thought of you
of you..You’re pushing and pulling me down to you
but I don't know what I want
no I don't know what I want...
Don't know what I want
but I know is not you
keep pushing and pulling me down
but I know in my heart is not you
Now when I caught myself
I had to stop myself
I'm saying something that
I should have never thought
now when I caught myself
I had to stop myself
I'm saying something that
I should have never thought of you
I knew
I know in my heart it's not you
I know
but now I know what I want
I want
I want
Oh no, I've should have never though!!! =P
Down to you
you're pushing and pulling me down to you
but I don't know what I
Now when I caught myself
I had to stop myself
I'm saying something that
I should have never thought
now when I caught myself
I had to stop myself
I'm saying something that
I should have never thought of you
Of you....you're pushing and pulling me down to you
but I don't know what I want
no I don't know what I want...
You got it, you got it
some kind of magic
hypnotic, hypnotic
you are leaving me breathless
I hate this, I hate this
you are not the one I believed in
with God as my witness
Now when I caught myself
I had to stop myself
I'm saying something that
I should have never thought
now when I caught myself
I had to stop myself
I'm saying something that
I should have never thought of you
of you..You’re pushing and pulling me down to you
but I don't know what I want
no I don't know what I want...
Don't know what I want
but I know is not you
keep pushing and pulling me down
but I know in my heart is not you
Now when I caught myself
I had to stop myself
I'm saying something that
I should have never thought
now when I caught myself
I had to stop myself
I'm saying something that
I should have never thought of you
I knew
I know in my heart it's not you
I know
but now I know what I want
I want
I want
Oh no, I've should have never though!!! =P
26.1.09
Paramore - We are broken
This song has no video... so I'm leaving here only the song because the video is not from Paramore as you should notice , is a video made for Supernatural... with the Winchester brothers(so cutes xD) and the lyrics are on the bottom, another one of my favorites... later I'll place other one of the Twilight soundtracks (Paramore - I caught myself). Enjoy!! =P
We are broken
I am outside
and I've been waiting for the sun
with my wide eyes
I've seen words that don't belong
my mouth is dry
with words I cannot verbalize
tell me why...
we live like this.
Keep me safe inside
your arms like towers
tower over me
Cause we are broken
what must we do to restore
our innocence
and all the promise we adored
give us life again
cause we just wanna be whole...
Lock the doors
cause I'd like to capture this voice
that came to me tonight
so everyone will have a choice...
and under red lights
I'll show myself it wasn't forged
we are at war...
we live like this...
Keep me safe inside
your arms like towers
tower over me....
Cause we are broken
what must we do to restore
our innocence
and all the promise we adored
give us life again
cause we just wanna be whole...
*************
Tower over me...
tower over me...
And I'll take the truth at any cost
cause we are broken
what must we do to restore
our innocence
and all the promises we adored
give us life again
cause we just wanna be whole...
I am outside
and I've been waiting for the sun
with my wide eyes
I've seen words that don't belong
my mouth is dry
with words I cannot verbalize
tell me why...
we live like this.
Keep me safe inside
your arms like towers
tower over me
Cause we are broken
what must we do to restore
our innocence
and all the promise we adored
give us life again
cause we just wanna be whole...
Lock the doors
cause I'd like to capture this voice
that came to me tonight
so everyone will have a choice...
and under red lights
I'll show myself it wasn't forged
we are at war...
we live like this...
Keep me safe inside
your arms like towers
tower over me....
Cause we are broken
what must we do to restore
our innocence
and all the promise we adored
give us life again
cause we just wanna be whole...
*************
Tower over me...
tower over me...
And I'll take the truth at any cost
cause we are broken
what must we do to restore
our innocence
and all the promises we adored
give us life again
cause we just wanna be whole...
12.1.09
I still do
Sorry, on these days I will write the 3th part of breaking dawn... but for now I need to take a break!!I saw you yesterday, and I couldn't help to remember how much I still love you; I was reading our past conversations and noticed how much you did too. I know I've been a fool, I always left you behind.
I don't think we'll ever be back again, and fate is taking care of that so well. That the only thing that's left is the hope that this feeling will at least slowly fade away; my hearth is broken in thousands of pieces and it hurts so much to be that close of you but at the same time so far. I didn’t want it to be this way and you know it; it’s not my fault the change of schedule ...but it is the lack of care I gave you.
I don’t know if you are just looking for and excuse to talk to me, or you really needed those things. I just want to think that everything has disappear and that you no longer feel the same for me, so I can go on with my life and be depressed for a while and then come back to life.
I still love you… I do!!... but there are moments when I’m angry with you for doing this, but later I feel bad for thinking that of you. You knew I didn’t have experience at all, that you were the first boyfriend I ever had (and that’s saying much); you were the only one that insisted that much so I could notice what you really wanted. Cause you now… I have always my mind up in the sky, and for me to notice your real intention was a big deal.
I think I have nothing else to say, at least for now. I will still see you almost every day, for only two months since now, cause you will finally end up with your studies but I will continuing here learning another language, just one more… another language to tell you this all over again.. Je t'aime!! =P
10.1.09
Breaking Dawn - Part 2
Continuing with the second part of Breaking Dawn; in this part the narrator is Jacob, as you might know, he came back to Forks because he wanted to see Bella after the wedding, or I might say on the reception of the wedding. The talking almost end up in a fight, but nothing happened, after that… when he discovered that Bella had return to Forks he wanted to see her because Charlie said that Carlisle told him that she had caught a weird disease, and that they were treating her on the house and that no one could see her for a while; so Jacob thought that she was finally a vampire and that that was the reason why they did let him see her; so he went see her, expecting the worst; but instead he found Edward really bad… like a dead walking… he seem so numb, so Jacob wanted to know why; and when he entered the house, he found them on the living room standing all around Bella that was lying down on a sofa with a sheet covering half of her body.He was shocked because he saw her really skinny so he went and talk to her but Rosalie was standing at her side, (like a bodyguard he thought!) the reason why… was that Bella had asked Rosalie for help; like she told her that she had always wanted to have her own family and that was something that Bella was rejecting by becoming a vampire, so when she found out that she was expecting a child she asked Rosalie for help, but it seemed that Rosalie was more concern about the “health” of the baby more than for the mother herself. Jacob talked to Edward and he asked “Jacob…please!!... Convince her to stop this madness; offer her something better, even if she wants to be a mother, it doesn’t have to be with me, and you can offer her that opportunity”. Edward was definitely desperate for save her. But he couldn’t do anything if she didn’t cooperate.
When Jacob went to see Sam, he thought that they were a threat for the werewolves, because they didn’t know what “the creature was”; growing inside Bella… that was obviously killing her. But Jacob didn’t want to hurt them cause that meant that they needed to kill her too… but Sam used his Alfa voice to make him obey; but then Jacob remembered that “he” was the one meant to be the Alfa… so he separate form the group of Sam and went to warn the Cullen’s… just seconds later Seth joined him and they noticed that they couldn’t hear Sam’s group; after a while Leah joined them too, but she wasn’t happy at all about having to guard the Cullen’s; she wasn’t that fond on them, but she felt better being with Jacob than with Sam… and she had to take care of her little brother (Seth).
When Jacob went to see Bella again, he noticed that the baby grew up too fast, that so that after some days it seemed like a four or six month pregnancy, but it was also becoming stronger and hurting Bella.
After a long time trying to feed her in vane, and without a change of seeing what happened with the baby cause the skin was too hard to see through it (like the one of the vampires). So they thought: “what if we can feed her with blood?”…how you might imagine the most exciting one with this idea was Rosalie… so like they had some blood on the house, just for emergencies; they gave her that… at first Bella wasn’t really excited about this idea, but like it was for the baby’s health; she drink it all and even asked for more; after a few days doing this she was a little bit stronger and the baby was bigger too.
There is a time when Bella is talking and for a moment Edward thinks that he listened to her thoughts… but it wasn’t her it was the baby… Edward could listen to her thoughts; so Bella asked him: “what is she thinking?…after a few seconds he said… she loves you… she loves you more than everything.
There had pass a long time after the Cullen’s feed themselves with blood, but none of them wanted to leave Bella alone, so they made hunting groups: Carlisle, Esme, Emmet, Alice and Jasper will go on the first group and the others on the second… Alice and Jasper were the first on came back cause the others stayed a little longer to bring more blood for Bella.
And at the same time; Bella was at the house with the other… so like all humans; she wanted to go to the bathroom, but when she stood up, she accidentally dropped the cup where the blood was… so she tried to reach it but suddenly something sounded, and Bella went down to the floor with a lot of pain. They all take her to the second floor and noticed that she was on labor, they dialed Carlisle so he could help them; cause the baby was chocking with the cord; but Rosalie said: “there is no time”… so she made a cut on Bella but there was a lot of blood…and she couldn’t control herself, but just in time Jacob take her down and take her out of the room; so in there with Bella were only Jacob and Edward; Jacob was trying to talk with Bella while Edward ripped off the placenta with his teeth and took the baby off, but then Bella said: “bring her to me…I want to see her”; when she was with the baby on her arms; that was maybe her happiest moment, but suddenly she bite her; so Edward take her out… Bella was bleeding so… dying; she became unconscious so Edward took a long shot that had his venom and injected it to Bella’s hearth and started to bite her and lip the bites so the venom could travel faster around her body so she wouldn’t die; but it was too late; she was already dead… so Jacob left the room while Edward tried to bring her back… when Jacob went down stairs till the first floor; he found Rosalie taking care of the baby, that little creature that was the reason why Bella was death, he was preparing to jump and take her down; but at the moment he saw her… he felt free of any attachment… but suddenly a new noise started… a beat a faster beat.
This is the end of the second part of the book on a few more days I’ll bring you the third and last part… be patient =P.
4.1.09
Breaking Dawn - Part 1
As I promised… I said that I would write about Breaking Dawn when I finish reading it; but I was so busy that when I finally ended I couldn’t write about it. So now I found a little time and I will write about it.Everyone who has been reading the whole saga knows that Edward and Bella are going to get marry, and that Jacob ran away from Forks, in this new book at the beginning Bella appears driving a car, but not her old car, no!!... How can the future Mrs. Cullen drive a car like that =P… So her gorgeous future husband buy her a car that till that moment she didn’t know what kind of car was, cause he told her that; till she doesn’t become a vampire she will drive the “before” car, that for her surprise was the most secured car on the history of cars. (The mercedes guardian).
But continuing with the history, as Bella promised she let Alice get in charge of the ceremony and the whole thing, but Alice didn’t let her see the decoration and Edward didn’t tell her where the honeymoon will be… so everything was going to be a surprise for her, but like we all know her… she wasn’t the most excited person about all the wedding; she only wanted to be with Edward no matter what, but his make him happy and this was part of the deal =P.
After lots of preparation, the wedding finally reaches the date and every single person they knew were invited to it, even on the Cullen’s side, but this was all normal, cause their friends knew how to behave in front of all of them. That day Bella finally knew Tanya xD… and she was as beautiful as she thought she will be, but she was now Edward’s wife, what else can matter, but a little of jealous aren’t bad =P.
Well like I don’t want to do this the longest post on the history, and I’m just on the beginning of the book, let’s jump till the honeymoon. Well they went to and Island which by the way was Esme’s Island, a gift from Carlisle when they married, and she lend it to Edward so they could pass their honey moon, it was an exotic parade, warm enough so that Bella wouldn’t die frozen, this was going to be the first time they were going to be together as a couple, and not only just as a couple but as “men & wife”….. but like I don’t want to ruin this part for the readers of the book, let’s jump again till the part were Bella finds the way… for Edward to do whatever she wants (this is a very important part of the book so read the book! =P) jojojo, so she finally convinces him to… let’s say… have sex again?, that part is really funny =P, but like they have been doing this a lot of time, hey! Remember that Edward has to eat in order not to kill her?? =P…. that’s right!, he went out to eat and left her just a few hours alone… but she is a magnet for troubles isn’t she?
Like she couldn’t sleep again, she cooked something, but when she was cooking the chicken she found… she couldn’t wait till it completely cooks so she eat it just like that, but she began to feel nausea and waited for Edward to come back, then I believe it was the same day, she couldn’t eat anything at all, and after several things, she thought… and what if I’m pregnant, so she put her hand over her belly and felt a kick, but it was too soon!!... so she ran to the mirror and saw that little… how to say it? mmm… thing?—growing there…. but sooner than expected, cause it was maybe less than a week since they were there.
Edward called Carlisle so he can “fix” the problem, and they prepared to come back, as soon as possible, he was that worry because this never happened before, this was a whole new creature and everything was possible, so he didn’t wanted to risk Bella’s life more than usual, but Bella had different plans, so when he went out to pack some things she called Rosalie, and the only thing she said was:….. Rosalie, I need your help…
I leave this here so I’ll continue with the other part of the book later =P… don’t hold your breath!
